finally got a working computer again
logged on here
and realized how much i've changed O_O
crap...
weeeeeeeell

Thanks to my incredibly long lack of sleep, i had nothing better to do than watch Adult Swim and cuddle with my guinea pig, Jenny. So there was this show that came on called Superjail! and i dont know if any of you have ever seen it, but its well about a jail that is super ANYWAYS so there was a girl in a hospital dying from cancer, but her beepy heart machine thingy turned into a flying robot and flew to who i think was the jail owner and he was all "ewww what is that?! Burn it at once!" so the robot thingyflew her down to the incenirator thingy and one crazy guy was like "LETS BURN HER!" but the other guy with a burnt up face was like "Nuh uh not this time" and kicked the crazy guy into the fire. The creepy guy read her arm bracelet and thought her name was "Cancer"(pronounced Sanser) so the burnt up guy took care of the little girl and while he was reading her a story these other guys came in the cell and were like "OH HE'S GOT A GIRL! AND SHE'S UNDERAGE!" so it looked like they were gonna do...things o_o but they just sat around the burnt guy and listened to the story. they figured out it was the girls birthday, and it also happened to be the guy who owned the jails birthday, too,so the cellmates took al the jailowners birthday decorations and when the jailowner found them and the girl, he got so mad, a gremlin thingy crawled out of his stomach and knocked a big stack of gifts on the little girl
the thing is, she didnt die from the boxes, cancer got her first


so
anyways
hey anyone who realized i left
just kinda felt like i had to leave
stress was getting to me with school and home life
but i'm good now
i've been watching a lot of tv, playing a lot of wii, and of course
rotc


aka sleepy class
exept for tuesday

Wow i haven't been online for awhile =_=
jeeeeeze
862 deviations|1804 messages
oh mah gahd I feel loved XD

anyhoo
there is good news and bad news

the bad is
one of my home tacos, Barinade
from New Jersey

well, he died...
01/17/08...
thing that makes this hard was he was one of my two friends i've known literally since the delivery room
we hung out all the time when i lived next to him up in Newark
him, steve, matt, sonny & me
i can still remember chillin' at steves house
his dad chasing us out coz he brought home a new gf
lol...i'll miss those times

theyre are still investigating what killed him, so i cant say i'm positive but i have one guess
his dad...

when i heard he died, of course, i went crash down depressed
but andy&kimberly, my dads gf helped me out...
basically, what they both told me wasn't the typical advice to just get over it
they told me, even though he's dead and gone
he wouldn't be happy to hear I was at an all time low
he'd want me to seize the day
cherish the time you have and each and everyday, live up and beyond expectations
take the memories i have of him and hold them closest to me than anything
it hyelped me get through, and now I feel a lot better

well
the good news is, people have begun to leave me alone
I dont care if they do try to make me happier
i'm tired of the assholes that are always stereotyping
so they went back into their cave

heck, i might not hav a valentines this year(ya me&andy decided to just b friends)
but i dont care
i've got my whole life for that
right now, i just wanna live
and even if everyday isnt promised to happen
i can be proud i made it this far

well, i got a LOL of messages to read now
toodles
~CRiMS0N CATASTR0PHY

back in school
and I remembered why I hated it

everybody ignores me
i honestly dont give a damn anymoarr
i'd rather be the quiet girl in the corner than the popular kid with an ego almost as big as her head
but when i ignore them...coz i'm DONE caring about their lives, they pitch a fit and i'm the most hated person ever
god i hate that
o well
least i'm not stuck with perverts and junkes like on the rest of the teams
and its to the middle of the year: the eye of the storm. I just have to get through the rest and i'm done with middle school
oh hell
high school is gonna b...idk but ima b asleep anyways
and even if anyone does pick on me, i know a junior that'll kick their asses

in other unrelated things i finally got NJOD
i thought i was gonna get all "its just not as good as the 1st one" but its actually alright i hate that friggin owl though
i am going to sick my repulsed monkey on itt

on williams part, i'm stuck on the thing where you havta paraloop the little bastard pians to some other place & on helens thing i'm stuck on the hippie monkey that throws its magic cats at you
but i guess like Qlok said, practice makes perfect

god...all i've done recently is play that damn wii...if its not NiGHTS, its messing up on gh3 and if not that, i'm rather asleep or walking around w/ aj
damnit crimson...you have 2 commisions to finish
2 very patient people are willing to spend their hard earned money on your shit FOCUS & GET IT DONE

phaaaaaa
well
w00
~CRiMS0N